Delusional Hope

 This Palm Sunday is the beginning of the week in which 

            we once again live out the core story of our faith

                        in all its drama and depth.

This is the central week of the whole church year, our highest holy days,

 

For me this year, having just stood in the exact same places 

that Jesus and his disciples have stood,

            the story is alive again with a freshness and immediacy 

                        that 2000 years have not diminished.

 

One of the observations I made again on this trip to the Middle East

            was how very political religion is.

I think our forebears in this country tried their hardest

            to separate politics and religion.

But the reality is that religion is very political,

            and Jerusalem is where that can be seen in spades.

 

And what Jesus did on his donkey ride into Jerusalem 

            was very political and provocative.

People had real hope in Jesus 

            that he would be the Messiah 

                        that would set them free politically from the Romans.

But this represented a delusional hope.

            Palm Sunday is a story of delusional hope.

 

There were all sorts of assumptions about what this parade

would accomplish:  hopes for the future, yet delusional hopes. 

 

Some had the hope that Jesus was the long awaited Messiah 

            the one who would free them from foreign oppression.

 

Some hoped that the Romans would see Jesus as a revolutionary

            and would arrest him and get him out of the picture

so that they could return to a safer way of coping with and living with 

the enemy in their midst,

so that they could manage to carry on with the upcoming Passover festival 

albeit under the oppressive shadow of the occupying military forces.

The irony – Passover, a celebration of the oppressors’ defeat by the Hand of God

            and the liberation of the Israelites from slavery.

 

And the Romans, they hoped to keep spontaneous demonstrations and riots 

            from erupting in the city square, and to hold onto control.

 

Recent events in Israel would indicate that 

            the ancient hope of political power and control will only last so long.

Whether for an oppressive dictatorship or for a popular uprising,

            the outcome rarely turns out to be what was hoped for.

 

Palm Sunday represents delusional hope.

 

We may look at today’s Palm Sunday procession

            as a way to give honor to Jesus as Son of David, Messiah, king, Son of God,

                                    the focus of our faith.

And we may want to ignore the details of the Gospel story and its outcome.

 

This event left the whole city in a turmoil.

The parade ends in the temple courtyard

            and next Jesus clears out all those 

                        engaged in the commercial part of the temple activities – 

            the money changers who made sure that no Roman coins 

                        with Caesar’s image on them would profane the temple

            and those selling the sacrificial animals.

Jesus then with incredible chutzpah carries out his usual ministry 

            of healing and teaching right there 

            in the geographic, liturgical and theological center of their faith.

He places himself between the people 

            and the temple sacrifices they came to offer, 

between the people 

            and their old way of worshiping God 

                        and assuring their right standing with God.

We are beginning a week of liturgical events 

            that if we were to pay attention to them

            they could take us out of the confinement of our current understanding,

                        our current religious confinement,

and would open our awareness to vastness of life

                        and all of its liberation, empowerment, joy, and love

                                    which is our inheritance in Jesus.

 

I urge you to attend the liturgies of this week,

                        Maundy Thursday, Good Friday, 

and you could also attend the Easter Vigil at the Cathedral or ...

 

This is the central week of the whole church year, our highest holy days.

What we do this week in liturgical form

                         is to place ourselves into the story,

 

As you take part in this holy week’s events, drop religion.

Drop the compartmentalizing of seeing this only as a liturgical observance,

            a narrow slice out of our whole life experience.

Instead what assumptions and hopes do you have in your life that get battered?

How are they shown up as empty and disillusioning?

 

NOW            whereas Palm Sunday represents delusional hope,

Good Friday is then the collapse of all our delusional hope,

            crushed and nailed to the Cross.

That is where we ended up with our reading of the Passion Account 

            from the Gospel according to St. Matthew ,

 

Brothers and sisters, this story of Jesus’ death is not a tragic account 

of suffering beyond all measure.

Jesus knew what he was doing; 

            this was the outcome he anticipated for the parade.

And he knew that what he was doing was essential,

                        all in service for you, for me, for every living being.

Good Friday is the necessary and beneficial collapse of all our delusional hope.

 

And then the Resurrection is the transcendence of this collapsed, delusional hope.

            Easter is a revelation which could not be anticipated.

But we can’t get to Easter, to resurrection, by any other way 

            than through the collapse of delusional hope and the Cross of Good Friday.

From delusional hope to transcending that hope with what cannot be anticipated

            that is what’s up for us these next few days.

 

If you come and take part in these liturgies of Holy Week, 

            with a willingness and trust to bring all your own 

                hopes and sorrows, shame and pride, suffering  and inner questioning                                                  

                                                                     with you,

that Love of God, Love which is God, will be at work in you,

            transforming wounds, bringing healing, and revealing to you great truth.

Apostle Prototype, Sermon at St. Andrew's

 So here we are now, deep in Lent, 

and you have probably noticed that the Gospel readings during this Lent

             have been a series of whole chapters from John,

each with a rich story loaded with 

1) revelation about who Jesus is, 

and 2) each with the exploration of particular personalities – 

Nicodemus, the Samaritan woman at the well, the man born blind, and next week Martha, Mary and Lazarus.  

 

Today in this chapter not only are we presented 

with a startling revelation about Jesus, 

but we also can see modeled for us

the example of a candid and guileless apostle.

 

The man born blind -  

            he sees more clearly than the religious leaders, 

            those who have studied the Torah and who are experts in their religion.

 

They, the theologians and “church pillars” as we might call them, 

            are metaphorically blind 

            because they cannot see past their doctrine and dogma 

                        to perceive the hand of God in operation right there before their eyes.

 

Their theology, their belief system provides them with a structure of meaning,

            a way to interpret the world around them in light of 

            the revelation of God that has come to them 

                        through the Torah, the prophets and the wisdom literature.

But their theology has become a box for them, 

and everything they encounter and experience 

passes through the filter of their belief system.

Now the story from the Hebrew Bible paired with this Gospel for today

            may not appear on the surface to have a ready connection with each other. 

This is the story of Samuel inspecting the sons of Jesse, 

searching for the one chosen by God,

until finally David, the youth, hardly more than a boy,

            is summoned in from the fields.

But the key verse is, 

            "Do not look on ... appearance(s) ... 

            for the Lord does not see as mortals see; 

            they look on the outward appearance, 

            but the Lord looks on the heart."

 

The theme here in both readings that connects them is discernment;

            this is discernment that takes place on the spiritual level, 

it is a different kind of seeing,

            what we experience and learn through the heart.

 

The spiritual vision, or sight, of discernment requires 

            that we are open to what goes on beyond appearances, 

beyond simple physical sight. 

It requires that we can "think outside the box."

 

We know that in problem solving 

if you're focused on the problem, 

you're going to miss possible solutions.

            You have to look beyond the problem for the solution.

 

Samuel's preliminary judgment was that the eldest son of Jesse 

would be God’s natural and traditional choice,  but not so.

Samuel had to move out of that perspective through the parade of six more sons, 

            seeing beyond physical sight,

and he was finally rewarded when David came in from the fields.

 

Now in the Gospel passage it is obvious who moved outside the box:

Not the religious leaders but the blind man.

 

The problem was the Sabbath;

making a mud poultice, healing, walking and washing were problematic 

            since technically they were work.

The religious leaders could not conceive 

                                                of how a messiah could flaunt the law; 

            they couldn't move outside their meaning box.

Their understanding of the law and how they interpreted it, 

                                                and how they defined Messiah 

            was preventing them from seeing the life behind the law.

 

Spiritual discernment is certainly something the world needs at the moment,

             especially when there is violence 

being wrought in the name of religion 

This happens in more than one place in the world.

 

I won’t presume to touch that on the global level here today,

            although I saw some of that most recently in the Holy Land itself.

But spiritual discernment is a needed element for life for each of us individually; 

            I would say that it is a Lenten focus, 

                        as it connects with the Lenten discipline 

                                    of self examination and repentance.

 

We are over half way through Lent now.

Do you remember back on Ash Wednesday?

            We were invited “to the observance of a holy Lent, 

by self-examination and repentance…

 

When it comes to self-examination and repentance in looking at ourselves, 

                        we can very easily have blind spots.

What may seem so apparent to others, 

            is hidden from our own perception, and we get "blind-sided."

We actually live in self delusion continually.  

We have a constant drama going on inside our heads, 

a continuous process of running all our experiences and encounters

             through the belief system we operate out of.

And this can feed right back into our self-delusion.

 

For instance someone may have the view of life that 

if you eat right, exercise regularly and drink lots of water 

you will enjoy good health.  

And then that person is diagnosed with colon cancer, 

and feels betrayed by their body. 

You can see how that can create a great internal crisis of meaning!

                                                                                              And that’s just a little example.

We all fall into that trap of thinking to greater or lesser degrees 

with all sorts of things that happen to us.  

The meaning frameworks operate fine for much of the time, 

but when they don’t

then we feel lost, shaken, anxious, fearful, and angry.  

The meaning frameworks we construct 

can be a set up for our self delusion.  

 

Life blind-sides us. 

Life too often happens outside our box.

The Spirit of Christ at work in the Church and in the world today

            has a way of always taking us where we hadn't expected to go,

in getting us to move out of some of our boxes.

                                                                                    The last 3 years have shown us that.

So - Think of experiences of when the Spirit of the Risen Lord touches us – 

When that happens, you gain insight, 

you come awake, as it were,

            once you were blind, now you see.

 

What John is writing about in his Gospel

            is this process for Christians everywhere for gaining sight.

 

Jesus had told the blind man to go across town 

and wash in the Pool of Siloam.

Now notice this:

The blind man is sent to a pool whose name means “sent,” 

and the blind man who now sees becomes an apostle, one who is sent.

 

This person is the quintessential Christian,

                         the quintessential apostle.

            He is you and I, 

                        if we too are willing to look beyond appearances 

                        and see with the spiritual eye.

 

Even if we aren't willing to look beyond appearances,

Jesus is still there for us offering the same healing for our blindness.

 

And – here is the revelation about Jesus – 

            Jesus made mud – he did work – and this was a work of creation.

Notice how this parallels the Genesis account of the creation of Adam

                        whose name refers to the mud from which he was formed.

 

The man was blind, but this was no sin, 

just a matter of an incomplete body, that is, eyes that don’t function - yet.

Here is a revelation about Jesus – Jesus as the Creator.

            Jesus completed the act of creation with this man

                        using the same primordial ingredient of creation, that is, mud,

                        using mud to make, in a sense, new eyes that actually see.

 

And it is noteworthy how compassionate he is.

            Jesus and his disciples are just walking by on the street,

            and they see a blind man sitting there.

They find out he was blind from birth,            

            and  the disciples focus on the reason why the man had been afflicted.

They only saw the problem, while Jesus was already far ahead, 

beyond even the healing to the consequences:

            making the glory of God manifest in the blind man,

            showing himself as light for the world.

 

And all the while this person, as far as we know,

             had not even asked for healing,

                        yet Jesus was already at work.

 

I suggest that we haven't even seen our own need for healing,

still being imprisoned by our own narrow sighted-ness and self-delusion,

            and Jesus has already been working for our healing ahead of us 

                        before we ask.

 

The blind man hadn’t asked yet, 

and Jesus gave him sight, 

and the man went through a huge paradigm shift of perception 

and he immerged as an apostle, 

speaking words of truth to those questioning him:

 

“Here is an astonishing thing!” he said.

“You do not know where he comes from, and yet he opened my eyes.

We know that God does not listen to sinners, 

but God does listen to one who worships him and obeys his will. 

Never since the world began has it been heard 

that anyone opened the eyes of a person born blind. 

If this man were not from God, he could do nothing.” he said to them.

                                                                                                And he worshipped Jesus.

 

How about us?

 

The process of gaining sight is one way we can describe 

spiritual discernment –

                        for each of us and for this congregation as a whole.

 

It is a process of waking up to self-delusion and self-limiting perspectives,

            a healing process of Lent,

            encouragement for seeking and opening to 

our Lord at work within us.

Initial Reflections on Return from the Holy Land

 2023-02-28 through 2023-03-11

Reflections on the Holy Land Pilgrimage

 

The daily posts from the Center for Action and Contemplation for this last week have been about pilgrimage, a grace-filled synchronicity.  

 

Sunday
Pilgrimage helps us see that as long as we think happiness is around the corner, we have not grasped happiness yet. Because happiness is given in this moment and this place, and this moment and place are as perfect as they can be. —Richard Rohr

Monday
Above all else, pilgrimage is praying with your body and it’s praying with your feet. It’s an exterior prayer, and the exterior prayer keeps calling you into the interior prayer. —Richard Rohr

Tuesday
Your soul no longer stays still. It’s moving with God in the world, and moving toward God, revealed in signs or shrines or saints or surroundings. The pilgrim’s walking body holds incarnate this inner journey of the soul.
—Wesley Granberg-Michaelson

Wednesday
A pilgrim must be like a child who can approach everything with an attitude of wonder and awe and faith. Let’s pray for wonder. Let’s pray for awe. Let’s pray for desire, and ask God to take away our cynicism. —Richard Rohr

Thursday
What most distinguishes the sacred art of pilgrimage from a tourist trip or hiking expedition, as beneficial as these are, is the characteristic inward journey, a turning of one’s heart to the Divine, with the expectation of transformation on every level of being along the way.
—Sheryl A. Kujawa-Holbrook

Friday
Whether we are on an actual pilgrimage or perceive that the road of life we are on is our pilgrimage, each step, each move one makes is blessed by the Spirit. For both an actual pilgrimage and the pilgrimage of everyday life is a journey of faith.
—Brett Webb-Mitchell

 

Now back “home” it is the pilgrimage of everyday life, but informed by my discoveries during the days of this physical pilgrimage to walk the footsteps of Jesus and Francis.  Again I walked in the footprints that span thousands of years, the same roads, the same paths, the same geographic locations that contain all the history that came before me, this particular individual in the continuum of human existence.  

 

Our species tries to distinguish itself as separate egos within our species, separate races, tribes, clans and families, continually dividing down into smaller and smaller units of existence.  I, too, am so acclimated to this attempt to self-identify an ego as my claim to existence.  I need the concept of pilgrimage, not to “find myself,” but to see myself in the larger scheme of life, and to look beyond the human species to the Gospel of Creation. 

 

The land we walked on during this pilgrimage was silently shouting to us about how much our human striving was beside the point, how much our clashing ideas, desires, claims of rights and demands for ownership and power and control blind us from seeing our relationship with all the other living beings: from the microbes in our guts, to the cats prowling the streets, to the birds singing their songs we do not hear, to the roots of trees that hold them to the stones, to the hills and valleys strew with those stones, the smaller ones of which that are placed on graves, to the power of water flowing downwards.  We did not feel that shaking of the earth that made those ancient carved columns fall all in the same direction bowing down to the force greater than any emperor’s monument.

 

This Lent I am overwhelmed – again – by the Ash Wednesday invitation to penitence, to examination of sin, not just listing my sins, but looking at the spiritual blindness that sin causes, the stumbling block, that which makes the labyrinth of the life journey into a hideous maze.  And I am also and again overwhelmed by the mercy and grace that I continually experience, the divine hand that gently turns my face toward the pilgrim road where the light is shining, where the path of the labyrinth is distinguished from the hell of the maze.  And again, year after year, I see – hopefully more clearly – those same old sins that I have persisted in and repented of and despaired over, that seem tattooed on my soul, newly again taken away in that grace and mercy by the One who has always drawn me into the heart of his love.

Meditation – Beginning Again

“Everyone … has been living through a time of mounting political, economic, ecological and climate peril – the turning point that we all share. Without exaggeration, it has been described as both ‘unthinkable’, and ‘like no other in human history’. We mislead ourselves to think of this as only the background or context of our lives -an external condition that needs to be fixed so we can then continue with life as before.”

Jeff Golliher, The Franciscan Forms of Service, Hopeful

Reflections in a Perilous Time, © 2021

The last couple of years have left their mark on us all in numerous ways. For some of us our prayer life and spiritual practices have been a source of comfort, or these practices have faced new challenges, or they have fallen short in what we would want to expect from them. Now is a good time to reflect on our spiritual practices, to reevaluate them, to renew or refresh them, or to open to new spiritual practices. This is important to address, as it is in our spiritual practices and prayer life that we can find grounding and support for how we face the challenges of this current point in human history and live our lives in response and not reaction.

For those of you who have (or have not) been meditating, doing mindfulness practice or another Buddhist practice or Centering Prayer or the Orthodox Jesus Prayer or any other form of sitting in silence with the intention of openness to the Holy, and for those who would like to learn how to meditate, I am offering a way to engage this spiritual practice.

Starting this Sunday, November 13, at 4:00 PM at West Central Abby, 1832 W Dean Ave, Spokane:

Advent Countercultural Meditation for the Busy Christmas Season

This class will explore the spiritual practice of meditation through short times of sitting together in silence and discussion about:

· what meditation is

· why meditate

· ways to meditate

· how meditation is a subversive sabotage of the prevailing culture

· how sitting still and doing nothing accomplishes so much

Our time together of sharing personal experiences of meditation is sacred and respected for each one participating while providing opportunity for loving personal growth and growth as a compassionate faith community.

It's not about continuing life as it was before.